We all face turning points in our life. Many of us multiple times. Sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse. However, I also believe that life is what we make it. Which glasses do you choose to wear, rose tinted or grey? When that fork in the road comes it is up to us to choose which path. By that I mean our attitude about the situation as well as what direction we take.
I won’t pretend to be this concrete pillar of strength because I’m not. I’m a woman. I’m equal parts fragile, sensitive, loving, and emotional, twisted together with strength, determination, and courage. I typically come into a situation first with a little fear. It’s the fear of the unknown and change. It takes me a little while to regain my balance when my world has been shifted. Once I get my footing though, I can be a force to be reckoned with.
When I received my diagnosis, I WAS TERRIFIED! The fear felt crippling. My life has been in enough upheaval the years leading up to it that I should’ve been more prepared. But that’s the funny thing, you can’t prepare for everything in life. I like to plan and know what’s ahead because it gives a certain sense of safety. However, you can’t just simply plan or prepare for a health battle. They have a tendency to suddenly appear. It didn’t take me too long though to regain my balance. I ran the gamut of emotions at first. I went from fear, to anger, to acceptance, to a sheer force to be reckoned with. Hashimotos may be a permanent part of my life but it sure the hell wasn’t going to control my life.
Over time I’ve not just regained my life, I am thriving!! This disease has taught me an immeasurable amount about myself and others. Which is EXACTLY why I wouldn’t take back having it. Difficulties have a way of showing us our weaknesses and our strengths as well as in others. I’ve grown to learn who I can depend on and who I can’t. Who actually cares and who’s just being nosy. I’ve learned that I hold the power within myself. You can’t always rely on others to be the stronghold, support and the stamina you need to get through. So often you will have people that can and will do that, but people have lives of their own too. Even spouses. At some point, it’s time to step up to the plate and be your own superhero.
Yes, Hashimotos has changed my life. For the better! I’ve made amazing friendships through the paleo and autoimmune community. I’ve sustained and blossomed old friendships through common bonds of trials and struggles. I’ve gained incredible amounts of knowledge about the food we eat, the products we use, the way we live and so much more. My family history will change because my daughters will have the knowledge to make healthy choices in life. They are being given strong roots for healthy bodies as they grow. That isn’t something I could’ve said a year ago. Without this diagnosis and disease I wouldn’t be where I am today. There’d be no paleohope blog, and I wouldn’t be sharing the message of paleo being life changing to others.
I’m thankful for this disease, despite having lost a few dreams along the way. It’s taught me that maybe those dreams weren’t meant for me. Maybe I had been reflecting the dreams of others around me and it was time I muscled up my own dreams.
So if you’re struggling and hurting and fearful of what’s to come with a new battle that’s been thrown at you, put on some new glasses. Rosy ones to be exact. Let your viewpoint change and see the possibilities of what’s to come.