It’s true. You can’t and won’t heal from almost anything in life until you realize…you are worthy of healing. Worth implies value and that equates to healing. How so? Simple, it can take time to heal, it can take love, it can take monetary funds, it takes support, and it takes determination. If you don’t think you’re worthy or of value then you won’t spend the time, money or reach out for support in order to heal. You won’t have the determination or self love and there’s a good chance you won’t feel the love others have for you.
I’ve been there in the past. Not physically like I am now, but emotionally damaged and hurt. Desperately needing healing for my soul. That can be when it’s the hardest because when you’re soul is damaged and you’re hurting so fiercely that waking up hurts, how can you possibly feel worthy?! IT IS HARD!!
I wish I could tell you an easy way, a tried and true method, but I can’t. All I can say is it took trust, hope and faith. Trust in myself and others, hope in a brighter tomorrow and faith in God.
It didn’t always matter what others said to me because if I didn’t in my heart believe what they were saying about me then their words were meaningless. Their intentions meant something though and that was where I started. I had to believe with even a tiny morsel of trust that what they said was true. That I am worthy of healing, love, time, and so much more. Because if they devoted their time to me and energy to say these things then I meant something to them for whatever reason. Those reasons where what I was in search of. So I prayed a lot!! Gods grace helped me get through each day and eventually it got easier. Each day I loved myself a little more and I discovered new reasons that I was special and unique and of value. I found talents I didn’t know I had and interests that I find exhilarating. It’s part of what makes me who I am.
When you’re at your worst is when God can do His best work. It leaves more room for Him to do something miraculous.
The same can be said with health. Which is where I am now. Struggling to regain my health and then maintain it. I’m at a point in my life now that I know without a shadow of a doubt that I am worthy of healing. I’m worthy of the time it will take, the funds it will cost, the support it requires, the love I need from my spouse and family and I’m very determined. That doesn’t mean I always do what it takes 100% of the time to regain my health. I slip and fumble sometimes. I eat things I shouldn’t. I don’t workout enough. I don’t relax enough. I don’t sleep enough. I don’t always take my supplements on schedule. I sometimes let petty things get to me which can lead to stress. In spite of all these failures, I see them as hurdles and challenges instead of reasons to quit. The old me, the hurting me that I didn’t find worthy, would’ve said “nope can’t do it! I’m done. I quit. I’m not worth it.” I wouldn’t have invested the time to do the research that has lead me to this point. I definitely wouldn’t have invested financially into this battle as much as I have. I thank God I’m not in that place anymore.
Through my struggles and pain a stronger me was born. I like this me. This me is definitely worth the fight.
So tell me, what are your thoughts on this? Have you ever experienced this same feeling?